Live life to its fullest

MY KIND OF MAN

2011-08-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Ok, Soooooooooo, IM BORED. Stumbled upon one of my friend's post and decided to do a similar one.

If you a guy- post this as my kind of girl..
If your a girl- post it as my kind of boy..

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
If he is it will be a bonus, but its not necessary. :)

2. Smart?
Yes. Smarter, and more mature.

3. Preferred age?
preferably older than me.

4. Preferred height?
Definitely must be taller than me.

5. How about sense of humor?
Yes. So he can laugh at my lame jokes. :X

6. How about piercings?
Preferably none.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Definitely!

8. Pink hair?
For a day? LOL.

9. Mushy or no?
When were alone, why not? :)

10. Thin or fat?
Healthy looking.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)? !
Does not matter.

12. Long hair or short hair?
Medium to short length.

13. Plastic or metal?
?????

14. Smells good?
*sniffs* :)

15. Smoker?
No.

16. Drinker?
Knows how to drink and knows how to control himself from getting tipsy.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Why not? :)

18. Muscular?
:)

19. Plays piano?
Would be nice if he does.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Best if he could play the acoustic guitar, cause i like to sing along when he plays. :)

21. Plays violin?
Bonus. :)

22. Sings very good?
Not necessary.

23. Vain?
Not too vain, but makes sure that he is presentable.

24. With glasses?
With or without, doesnt matter

25. With braces?
Not important.

26. Shy type?
Sometimes shy guys are cute, but i still prefer guys who do not withdraw themselves.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Depends on what he is rebelling against...

28. Active or passive?
Active.

29. Tight or bomb?
Is this even relevant?

30. Singer or dancer?
I would go for... singer.

31. Stunner?
Stun me! :P hehe.

32. Hiphop?
Sure, why not?

33. Earrings?
Nah.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-boyfriends-until-you-drop?
. . . . .

35. Dimples?
=:)

36. Bookworm?
Surprisingly, i find them cute. But not too nerdy please

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Mr. love email. Love the environment. :)

38. Playful?
Lets play together.

39. Flirt?
;) (only to me la of course.)

40. Poem writer?
*awwwwwwww*

41. Serious?
Yes, whenever he needs to be.

42. Campus crush?
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. Possible.

43. Painter?
Paint me. :)

44. Religious?
Loves God, preferably someone who is more mature spiritually.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Can, but there's always a limit.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
I would rather the Internet freak.. Always have something against guys who are hooked to computer games 24/7

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Nearly impossible but if so, why not???!!

48. Loyal or faithful?
Isn't it the same thing??? and a definite YES to that.

49. Good kisser?
Doesn't matter. I don't even know if I'm a good kisser to begin with. :/

50. Loves children??
Whats not to love?? YES!!! :D

Current mood: Love is waiting by Brooke Fraser

They say, Love comes unexpectedly, does it really?

Introducing....

2011-06-06T07:40:00.010+08:00

my roomie!

WERE GOING TO THE LAND OF THE ROMANIANS SOON AND I AM SURE WE'LL HAVE A NICE TIME!!!!

Will try to keep you guys updated. ;) Bye for now.

:)

2011-06-03T09:29:00.002+08:00

Just wondering if anyone still reads my blog. *hmmm* Anyways, just want to tell you guys that Im still alive!! :)

Sorry for missing in action. Will update soon (I hope)

If you're gonna fall in love with me

2011-02-13T02:55:00.000+08:00

Since its Valentines day tomorrow, thought ill just post something up on my outdated blog as an update. ;)

To my future BF/ husband, whoever you are:

"If you're gonna fall in love with me, its only fair that you know who you are falling in love with."

"You need to know that God is first in my life and no one can ever replace that place. You are falling in love with my "blurness" at times. You are falling in love with my insecurities, my constant worries of failure. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, and also my need to feel independent. You are also falling in love with my stubbornness, my overactive tear ducts and my lame or sarcastic jokes.

If you fall in love with me, you will fall for all my imperfections and my temper and concern over things I hold dearly. You fall in love with my hopes and dreams, and how I'm a hopeless romantic at heart.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I'm with you, the way I'll text you at night, to say goodnight or the way I'll call your name. The way I like to cook for you, just to see that smile on your face. The way I blush and the way I would lean on your shoulders and hold your hand. The way I will support you in pursuing your dreams, the way I respect you and the way I express ''I love you'' without saying a word, but with my actions.

To me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, for who I am and not what you want me to be."

Love,

Your Valentine

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE

Reflective thinking

2010-07-19T23:40:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

There are days where you don't feel like chatting with friends online, going out, or even talking because you felt that you've been spending practically all your time doing so. You just wish that you could just spend some quiet time reading a book, doing your devotion and ponder on things.

Tonight is one of those nights. I came to realize that my whole month was practically spent just hanging out with people. Its not that I do not want to hang out with people and spend time with them, I DO. But its just that I'm so tired and worn out and somehow in the midst of doing so, I lost myself. I am indeed thankful that God
has put in a great bunch of friends in my life and I feel so blessed by them. I really wish that i could write a letter to each and every one of them to tell them how i feel. However, no matter how sociable a person may be, i feel that a person still need some time to be alone.

DO you think private thoughts?

What questions do you always ask yourself? Are you setting your priorities right in life? Are you truly happy now? Is anything hindering you from moving forward? Do you carry a burden in you that only you know about? Are you at par with the standards others expect on you?

Sometimes i wonder why do people avoid saying things they long to say? Maybe because rationality surpasses emotions, surpasses regrets? Or is it because of the fear of rejection, the fear of being hurt and also the fear of being viewed as a weakling? Are these fears the reason why a person would hinder their own self from expressing what they are suppressing deep within their hearts? Or perhaps the perception of 'bearing the thing alone so the receiver would not feel burdened by it' mindset that is preventing them from portraying their true self. Some people choose to express how they feel, some decide to keep it embedded inside their own hearts.

Whatever it is, know that it is YOU that determine your own happiness, do not let anybody snatch that away from you.

Restlessness

2010-07-15T04:09:00.000+08:00

Why am i blogging when its 4 in the morning??!

Exam's tomorrow and all my friends who are taking this subject are already in dreamland........

Its because im restless now. I drank too much coffee and am currently overdosed with ginkgo biloba....! By the way, this ginkgo thing really helps to enhance ones memory and concentration!

Seriously, its already been tested by me and proven effective. ...

Ok, so much for my rants. I shall force myself to go sleep now. . . >.<

I need You

2010-06-06T15:00:00.002+08:00

Lord, please give me strength to make it through mid terms.

Body, I know you are tired but please do not fail me now.

Beatrice, I can do it!

back after the long hibernation

2010-05-16T01:05:00.000+08:00

Inside RK... Beautiful isn't it? :)

For those who don't know what RK stands for, it stands for Rumah Kesayangan, a home that caters for those who are mentally disabled. Its fully funded by my church back in Penang and I had a chance to be with those kids for the past 1/2 weeks of my holidays. I was also privileged to speak to the person in charge of RK to learn more about the various disorders of those kid's while I was there. How cool is that right? :D

Really pity this boy. He cant walk and they have to tie his leg up in order to strengthen his leg muscles. :(
Aww, he's shy. hehe.

Sushi time! Too bad some of them are not use to the taste. :/ Btw, thats my daddy on the left hand side. Really proud of him. He teaches them every monday to wednesday. :D

This is Seong Seong. He has cerebral palsy. BUT he believes one day God is going to heal him! Amen! :)

Hi Jason for dropping by. :) Enjoyed the fellowship.

During the hols, I also made durian cheesecake....

and strawberry yogurt cheesecake!

And of course, hanging out with old frens. Sorry if I did not call/ invite some of you out. My holidays were quite packed this time. :/ Will definitely call you out when I come back next time. ;)

Take care everyone.

Signing off.

What am I doing?

2010-04-22T03:57:00.002+08:00

Its so late right now..... I should really be sleeping..... But I cant.

5

2010-03-13T03:03:00.001+08:00

5 months........

What does it mean to you?

To me, it means the world. :)

So much to do, so little time.

Im back!

2010-02-24T13:34:00.000+08:00

I realize I am a really lazy blogger. >.<>To compensate for the lack of updates, I shall make this post a longer-than-usual-one. Hehe.

Currently having a zit on my right cheek now. Perhaps this is a sign of stress. *not good*

Oh well, CNY holidays ended with me feeling glad that I could spend the precious 1 week with my family but also left me reluctant to go back.. *takes a deep breath* Reality begins to sink in as I think of the pile of workload that awaits me.

ANYWAYS, I experimented * wiggle hands* with more cooking during my hols!

First and foremost,

OREO CHEESECAKE- This time i decided to bake it. Wanted to see how my Oreo cheesecake would taste like if its baked.

The base with crushed oreo and pure butter. *yum* you could just eat it on its own!

Then you add the cream cheese, oreo cream, sugar, vanilla essence, eggs, and whipped cream. (not all together, mind you. ) Sorry, did not actually capture some pics during that process.

After its done, it should look like this.

Bake it and....
Top with whipped cream....

and some oreo bits and Toblerone .

Next stop,

M&M or REESE COOKIES

Get the ingredients ready...

Mix...

and mix..

and mix.
Cluster the mixture into a spherical shape (do leave some space in between as the cookies will expand) and...

Bake!

Lastly,

PRAWN ROLLS
Blend onions, serai (forgot what its called in eng, lol) chilli, ginger and a bit garlic. Add sugar and a bit salt.

Also blend the 'heh bi' (small shrimps) and ikan bilis. Stir fry it with a bit of oil until its dry and...

Wrap it up

You can fry it. (most ppl do that) but for me i chose to bake it as its healthier.

So much of food..

Side tracking. . .

----------------------------------------In Uni -------------------------------------------

Mel: why why why?

Vicki: Z Z Z.

Everybody *cold sweat*

This is how lame my buncha course mates can get.

P.S If you would like the recipes for the stuff I mentioned above just give me a call or drop me a msg. Would be glad to share it!

God bless you my dear readers....

Counting my blessings.

2010-01-11T23:08:00.003+08:00

I take things for granted. I take God, people (especially my loved ones) for granted until the extend that sometimes I think its normal for them to treat me well.

Thinking again. I actually do not deserve these blessings. He is the reason that I am so blessed right now and it is merely because of love, patience and acts of kindness from my loved ones that I am able to enjoy these blessings.

To Him,

The least I can do is to say:

Thank You for the sunlight that shines through my window, reminding me that I am still alive every morning.

Thank You for the skies and clouds that never cease to be different everyday.

Thank You that I do not have to worry whether I have enough to eat and drink everyday.

Thank You for the people that You've put in my live that i may receive and see Your love through them.

Thank You for such a wonderful family that You've placed me in.

Thank You for friends that cared for me like a family when I am away from home.

Thank You for putting my future in Your hands.

Thank You for teaching me patience.

Thank You for disciplining me and correcting me although it is painful.

Thank You for allowing me to experience a little hurt to prevent me from bigger hurts.

Sorry for being stubborn.

Sorry for lying to you although I know You are all knowing.

Sorry for my foolishness!

Sorry for being so arrogant and prideful at times. Argh!

Sorry for succumbing to temptations.

Sorry for blaming others and You when I am the one at fault.

Sorry for taking You for granted.

Im sorry Jesus.

To all my loved ones,

I sincerely thank God for placing you in my life. Even though sometimes I did not mention/express (usually I wont show it) how much I thank God for you all (pride la maybe) I REALLY do and I appreciate every single effort that has been made.

Time

2009-11-08T02:08:00.000+08:00

To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven;

A time to be born,
and a time to die;
A time to plant,
and a time to pluck what is planted;

A time to kill,
and a time to heal;
A time to break down,
and a time to build up;

A time to weep,
and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones,
and a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace,
and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to gain,
and a time to lose;
A time to keep,
and a time to throw away;

A time to tear,
and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
and a time to speak;

A time to love,
and a time to hate;
A time of war,
and a time of peace.

-Ecclesiastes 3

Love vs in love

2009-11-06T23:54:00.001+08:00

There is a definite difference of love vs. in love.

You can love and care about all kinds of people and things but to be "in love" requires a closeness and bondness between two people that constantly need nourishment to grow with each other, and a lot of factors are entailed to keep the love blossoming. Much compared to nurturing a plant or flower, if you dont tend to it daily, it will eventually die from lack of caring and love and will not flourish anymore.

Same goes with our relationship and walk with God. The once passionate relationship we had with Him will fade over time if we shift our priorities.

"Love is strong yet delicate. It can be broken. To truly love is to understand this. To be in love is to respect this." -Stephen Packer

I turn to you

2009-09-04T00:42:00.006+08:00

Holidays gone. Exams coming. Assignments accumulating. Another holiday (which will mostly be occupied by doing assignments) approaching. And the cycle goes on again....... until December.

My business finals clashes with my new sem. I am so tired. Hope i can survive these few weeks with finals and assignments constantly bogging my mind.

Still, I would like to dedicate this song to God, my family and my dear friends who stood by me when I am at my worst, lowest, and weakest though some of them might not read this.

For their patience and understanding. Thank you. Because they accepted me at my worst, they sure deserve me at my best.

For Him and them:

I Turn To You by Christina Aguilera

When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way, when I'm scared losing ground
When my world is going crazy you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night

For a shield, from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong and for the will to carry on
For everything you do I turn to you yeah

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change for someone to lean on
But for a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who I can run to oh I turn to you

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

And here comes the update. (Like finally......)

2009-08-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

I cant help to *smile widely* everytime i head back home.

Why? I'll let the pictures explain. :D

St Xaviers! My dad's school.

The picture below was just a random shot btw. LOL. I saw it on the way to Pulau Tikus.

Besides driving around Penang, my dad and I went for a jog and also a visit to the spa cause they have like some promotion thingy. 4 sessions for Rm45.

Okay now talk about food. We had... western food.

... seafood...

And also the famous hawker food, like the char koay teow........... etc.. But Not to forget, our very own homemade stuffed crab and blueberry cheesecake. :)

I love my home, my fam, my friends, and most of all, Him for providing all these to me.

Ill just end my post with a verse i received from my porky bro nights ago.

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of all wisdom."

I pray that those mosquitoes extinct from the face of the earth

2009-07-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

Im really really really....... worried now. :(

I just got the news from my family. My dad contracted Chikungunya, a disease that is brought about by the (!@^%!^@$!@^) mosquitoes, specifically, aedes.

Please pray for him that he gets well soon. He has been having fevers on and off for weeks and his body is not getting any stronger lately. :'(

P.S. My hatred towards mosquitoes has increased to 236782362836278368263283........ folds now.

Current mood: Trying but cannot concentrate on my studies.

Random

2009-06-30T22:07:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Dont know why. But out of a sudden, I miss home. Dont get me wrong. I'm surrounded by really great friends here in KL. They are really fun and nice people, although they always bully me. (I said always cause there's never one day in class that they do NOT 'zha' me, LOL) We would laugh and debate over stupid things, thats how lively our gang is.

However despite these things, there tend to be moments where I think about home. You know, i find it really weird. At times when I'm back in KL, i tend to miss the times when I am with my family and conversely at times, when i'm back home i tend to miss my life here in KL. Maybe i have bipolar *gasps* Haha.

I also miss those times where i am free to talk in my very own mother tongue (hokkien campur english) whereas here in KL, I rarely have friends that understand hokkien, except for mel though her slang is a wee different from mine. Dont get me wrong again, I am perfectly fine with speaking english, but there tend to be times where you loose the homely feeling.

Here are some words from the hokkien dictionary that I rarely use nowadays, LOL

Hami? - What?

Hamisu. - You use this when ppl find you or kacau you

Kao Bin Pui - thick skin

Ai Bin - Err, love your face? Something like being egoistic.

Ma Si Eh Neh Lor - Ma like that lor

Chiak!! - Eat!!

Ho liao - Used when you are in awe of something. Eg, food.

um chai - dont know

The list goes on........ and on........ and on.......... haha.

Ok, so much for my rants. Im off to being a nerd now.

Current mood: Moodless

Overcome your fears

2009-06-28T19:43:00.004+08:00

I told myself I will not do it. I WILL NOT do it. Since young, that is the one thing that I vowed to myself that I would never do.

If you called me to do it maybe even one year ago, I would say 'over my dead body'. Thats how persistent I was, but I ended up doing it anyway!! (all thanks to someone for 'forcing' me to do it) Haha. . .

Oh well, no regrets now, now that i've done it. :)

Current mood: Syiok sendiri

Because all Your promises wont let go of me

2009-06-25T22:01:00.007+08:00

Father,

That meeting was rather an eye opener. Maybe its You guiding me to take a better path for my future. I am left in much confusion now. I would rather use the money to go for various internships around the world, to live there for a few months and gain experience than to use it to get a piece of degree overseas.

Help me Father. May whatever path I take, be a path that is align to Your judicious plan that You have for my life, my future.

In You I trust.

Confused,

Your daughter

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

What matters is actually the experience and exposure. That degree is just another piece of paper. Isnt it?

P.S. Sorry no comments for this post. Btw, AIESEC is not a club, its an organization. Hehe. Just got to know that today.

dont.know.what.title.to.put.here.so.no.title.eh.wait.isnt.that.a.title.already?

2009-06-23T18:45:00.001+08:00

I’m feeling so fresh (cause I just bathed =.=) and kinda tired now. Just got back from the gym. However, at this spur moment, I just had this feeling to blog. Oh well. . Updates. . .

Anyway, some people (you know who you are la) asked me why was my last post so emo and poignant one. Well, to answer that Q, I am NOT emo. Hahaha. I just merely think that its a nice song and its very inspiring. THAT’S ALL. Alamak you people.

Ok, I better not side track. Right, as some of you know, I moved out from my old place and am currently residing at XXX Jalan XXX. . Yeah, lame. I know. *laughs* Not to say that I am not lame but today, a ‘pig’ bit me with her AH1N1 virus and infected me. Thus, I became lamer. If you don’t find it funny, nevermind. *laughs again* (its an inside joke)

I can see some cold sweats dripping. Well, actually I cant. Blahhhhhhhhhhh.

Ok! Since I came back to KL, I.. .

- Helped out in a debating thingy organized by HELP. *hints* (Ting Ting X 646747 times. You basically know what task I’m assigned to now. Dontcha?) Oh ya, and I earned me-self one free lunch meal after that. :D

-- Pressured my club, the clinical psychology interest club to organize some interesting activities for the club. Seriously, they have been slumbering and their reply was, I quote, “Seeing your enthusiasm, are you willing to be in charge of the project after we come out with it?” Wth, teruk right?? Pushing the job back to me. *Sighs* Lazy seniors

- Visited the cinema multiple times

- Went to the gym

- Went badminton-ing

- Went supper-ing

- Went Cell-group-ing

- Went pool-ing (man, i suck at pool)

Checklist yet to come. . .

- Mich’s overnight stay at my place

- Genting trip, yet again. . . (Sorry to someone for getting you all hyped up and…… >.<)

- Claim my 2 free suppers. (KLT, take note :P)

- Also, claim my 2, wait. .. 3 meals if I am willing to play L4D WITH headphones on.

- Babi’s birthday celebration

- Swimming at Dao’s place

- Meeting the president of HELP’s AIESEC (which apparently is also my coursemate) to bombard him with questions. *hehe* Well, I might consider joining that club if its appealing to me.

- MGT presentation & assignment and MKT assignment

- And finally, become a nerd. *puts nerdy specs on*

Also, my so called badminton partner, Eric (Haha, your reputation gone la) ‘abused’ me today. His racket went SMACK and hit my hand. But then, accidentally one la. I’m ok. It looks serious, but actually the pain’s reducing and its getting numb. I got a new name too today, its called Beatrica. -_-lll Thanks to my dear tutor. There’s some inside jokes about flour (thanks to mel) and thick bali (and eric) too. *laughs*

Alright, I am getting lazy now. *yawns* Going to have a cuddling session with my dear pillows and bolsters and ZZzzzZZzz.. Night onliners sekalian. Will visit my blog again, when I visit my blog again. LOL. Lame? I know.

Keep climbing

2009-06-08T22:12:00.005+08:00

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

more baking from the past

2009-05-31T23:21:00.004+08:00

Lemon cheese cake

New sem starts tomorrow. Guess I will be busy bee back again. Take care everyone!

Logging off,

Bea

My Family. . .

2009-05-31T23:11:00.001+08:00

After spending more than half a month back home. I feel an urge to blog a post about my family.

Famous quotes from my family members, some of it said around the dinner table:

My dad:

"Tonight got family time!"

"Who took my things? I dont like people taking my things and not putting them back!"

"Bea ar, your hair is everywhere!"

"Do you know ar, blablabla (biblical stuff)."

"Bea/Ber/ Bar/Mom, will say grace today."

My mom:

"I beg your pardon??" ( With eyes almost bulging off. When you said something wrong)

"Tonight's dinner, you take down the ....... from the freezer then you......... the ......... "

"Dont keep eating oily stuff. Its not good for you one."

My sis:

"Today at work ar. . . mr. abc blablabla ms. xyz blablabla, i think blablabla."

"This is my favourite food. This one also! This one also!!"

"Wah, all also my favourite food." (-__-"")

My bro:

"Today. . . blablabla about prefect and st. john ambulance stuff."

"Thank God i didnt go that camp, cause my friend ar, he went to that camp then. . . This camp good/must go. Pa/Ma, help me sign the form. Jie your words nicer, help me fill up the form"

"You know ar, this game blablabla. . that game. . blablabla."

"I dont know how to do this. Teach me lah."

Yours sincerely:

"Today i went out with xyz, def. . . ar, then blablabla"

"You all want to eat blablabla or not?"

"Then have to buy blablabla (ingredients) for blablabla."

"Very sien la. . "

"Why must sleep so early?"

Both parents:

"Dont do last minute things!"

"Sleep early tonight.. . . (or sometimes) Sleep now!"

"Come la hug, long time didnt hug you d." (-__-"")

"Bar, Bea, Ber, do (this this this. . .)"

Us three:

"Hmm/har... (acknowlegement that we hear them calling) Coming!"

Haha. . So there ya go. A bit about my family. Not perfect. We have our loop holes and flaws sometimes but I thank God for putting me in this family.

Hypothesis: Holidays increases baking skills.

2009-05-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

pineapple tarts

carrot cake with cream cheese topping.

Blueberry cheese tarts.

and finally, homemade strawberry milk shake! A reward for towing hard all day. :)

P.S. Thank you someone for helping me bake the cheesetarts. DONT keep saying you did nothing much. Heh. Preciate it.

Love at first sight.

2009-05-04T23:27:00.003+08:00

Is that possible? Hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
FYI, Im not in love with the cello. If thats what you are thinking. Heh.

Just another of my random thoughts and I am not talking about myself. Its complicated. blahhhhhhh.

Penang = Food

2009-05-04T22:37:00.004+08:00

Some of the pics I took recently. Am lazy to update all, and its all just random shots.

Guess who these two people are? I'm so blessed. ^^

How to make oreo cheesecake 101.

2009-05-04T21:19:00.003+08:00

Looks tempting eh? *grins*

First of all, you will need:

1. Whipped cream (220 g)

2. Fine sugar (100g)

3. Butter

4. Cream cheese (250g)

5. Oreo biscuits (1 pack)

6. Gelatin (1 tablespoon)

7. Vanilla essense (1 teaspoon)

8. A plastic bag. (Optional)

Separate the oreo biscuit from its cream. Put the oreo biscuits into the plastic bag.

Crush it into chucks. Remove 1/4 of the oreo. Continue crushing the remaining 3/4 into finer bits.

Use the weighing scale to measure the sugar and whipped cream. Refrigerate the whipped cream.

Combine the soft butter and the crushed oreo(3/4) together and press it flat, like the pictures shown below.

Refrigerate.

Next, combine the cream cheese, sugar and oreo cream together. Blend for 2 mins at normal speed.

Pour the whipped cream into the cream cheese batter. Mix well.

Add one teaspoon of vanilla essence and the gelatin into the batter. Stir.

Note: Make sure your gelatin has been dissolved before you add it into your batter.

Also include the remaining oreos (1/4) into the batter. Stir well.

Finally, pour the batter into your desired mould.

This is optional. You might want to design your cheesecake. For my case, i dripped melted chocolate on the surface of the creamcheese batter and made swirls. Thus, creating a pattern that looks like this.

:) Refrigerate after you are done with the design.

Last but not least, ENJOY.

To judge or not to judge?

2009-04-23T03:07:00.002+08:00

This post would be another one of my rants prior to previous encounters i had with various people.

1 Cor 2:15 (KJV) But he that is spiritual judgeth all things...
Mat 7:1 (KJV) "Judge not, that ye be not judged..."

Ok.... so as Christians, should we judge?

First of all, lets sip through the meaning of the word, judge. Judgment is an ambiguous word, in Greek as in English: it may mean sitting in judgment on people (or even condemning them), or it may mean exercising a proper discrimination. In the former sense judgment is depreciated; in the latter sense it is recommended.

Personally, i feel a Christian is not to judge hypocritically or self-righteously, as can be seen from the context above. [But] Scripture repeatedly exhorts believers to evaluate carefully and choose between good and bad people and things. The Christian is to "test everything":

1 Thes 5:21 "By all means use your judgment, and hold on to whatever is good."

Among the gifts of the Spirit scarcely one is of greater practical usefulness than the gift of discernment. This gift should be highly valued and frankly sought as being almost indispensable in these critical times. This gift will enable us to distinguish the chaff from the wheat and to divide the manifestations of the flesh from the operations of the Spirit.

For clarity, let's use the word discern for the judgment that God encourages, and criticize for inappropriate judgments. By context, try to identify whether the word judgment, when used in Scripture, means discernment or criticism.

Here are some scriptures for you to identify:

Luke 12:57 (NIV) "Why don't you judge for yourselves what is right?"

Hosea 4:6 (NIV) My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge.

It is important that we judge things properly, or discern. If a person with appendicitis is diagnosed as having an ulcer, it may seem a mere matter of terminology, but if judged improperly, treatment could lead to death! If a baby has a fever, you wouldn't put it in the freezer to cool it down. Treating the symptom may make the problem worse! Discernment by outward appearances, out of ignorance, confusing cause and effect, symptom with problem, can be devastating--even with the best of intents.

2 Cor 10:7 (NIV) You are looking only at the surface of things.

Phil 1:9-10 (NIV) And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and be pure and blameless until the day of Christ.

Phil 1:9 (TEB) This is my prayer for you: I pray that your love will keep on growing more and more, together with true knowledge and perfect judgment...

1 Ki 3:9 (NIV) So give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong...

1 Cor 12:10 (Phi) ...to another the ability to discriminate in spiritual matters...

God bless.

Signing off,

Bea

Dinner with fam.

2009-04-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

Went to some seafood restaurant in Raja Uda, Butterworth.

Ill let the pictures speak for itself..

Fried porridge

Homemade Tofu by the boss' wife

Lala in lemon sauce

The 'not worth it' fish. -__-

Fried chicken

Crab

The chef

P.S. My 5 cents. Not worth the money. The fish alone cost us 75 bucks. However, the homemade tofu was nice.
Lesson: Follow the person to weigh the fish before you confirm your order. :D

Prevention is better than cure!

2009-02-20T13:28:00.003+08:00

It is open to both males and females.

If you are interested to attend this event, kindly call or inform me, Rachel, Oon yow, Mun yeu, Mae Jae, Jared or Prabesh in class.

This might help save your life someday!

Looking forward to see you. ^^

Everything in God's hand

2009-02-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

It may appear to you that I am angry.

It may appear to you that I do not care anymore.

It may appear to you that you did something wrong.

It may appear to you that I am ignorant.

But that is only what you think.

There is so much that you do not know.

You do not know this is God's will.

You do not know that I have been thinking and praying about it ever since anything happened.

You do not know that I have been testing God to show me the signs, to reaffirm that it is His will.

You do not know that I have been disobedient to God till finally.

This is a nice picture. I just feel like uploading it. :)

Ps is right, seasons change.

I am moving on, and I hope you are too.

Not moving on to find someone else new. But to focus on the things in life that really matters.

To be obedient to my parents and honour God.

You and I know its not meant to be, not now.

Time will be the judge, if this is real. Or merely just a stage of life every teenager face.

If it is real. God will make a way.

But only in His timing, not ours.

and I will keep my promise. We will still be friends.

2009-02-08T18:06:00.016+08:00

Welcome back to me.

Its been awhile since i last updated. I spent my entire CNY holidays in Penang and Kulim with my family. (and in many ways God taught me to appreciate them more after that.) CNY back in KL was also spent hanging out and catching up with friends (who wants to meet up and catch up with me. heh.) For those that were busy (or pretending to be), too bad la. Dont know when ill meet you again. :P

Anyways, I've been wanting to put up pics on my trip to singapore. But due to my laziness. I delayed this post for a very very........ long time. Sorry. >.<

So here goes, enjoy~~

My bro's expression while waiting for the plane. =.=

At Bugis road. Some flea market.

The fishes there are HUGE. haha. .

Orchard Road in the evening.

Me pretending to duno do what. haha.

Dad and me. :D

Me riding a bull made of steel. LOL!

Unfortunately, i also burnt my hand when i was there.

However, by God's grace, He healed me real quick, and now the scar is almost gone. ^^ Sometimes, I cannot comprehend His faithfulness and grace towards me. It makes me fall in love with Him over and over again.

Also, I hope I can be involved in CARS (a children ministry) in SIB. I think its high time i start serving back again.

I'll just end this post with a verse:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, thoughts of peace and not evil, to give you a future and a hope. "

Jeremiah 29:11

When we lay our live in the hands of God, our future is rest assured because man may fail, but God does not. :)

WooooooooHooooooooooooo!

2008-12-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

Nerdy Mode: OFF.

Updatessssssss! Finalleh..

Okie. First things first. Pictures that I promised from the last post.

ACP project. (We went to an orphanage)

Mel's birthday

Jordan spoiled the pic. (must be saying one of his aiyos again while we took this pic. XD)

My Birthday

and finally.....

TALENT TIME... Woo! We ROCK!!! :D

third prize baby!

My next update will be in a week's time. Ciao ppl. :)

GOB BLESS.

update update

2008-11-06T19:12:00.005+08:00

Welcome to my long abandoned blog.

*breathes deeply*

Been pretty busy lately.

As to what i've been up to, here's a short checklist as of what happened for the past 3 weeks:

University:

ACP project- done! ( will update in pictures soon)

Assignments- partially done.....

Exams- over! (only for mid term, finals coming soon)

Friends:

Mel's birthday! (Will definitely update pictures when im more free)

Watched high school musical 3, (Someone said its boring. =.=) Bangkok Dangerous, ( Okok only lar) The vampire who admires me, (Totally sucky!!!!) Max Payne, (Ok only) Mamma mia (Quite nice)

Went to the musuem (Boring... Regretted going) and Petaling Street

Meeting up with Mich in Sunway Pyramid this sat! ( Gonna talk talk and talkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk......!)

Church:

Bowling with CG members(might update pictures once i get the pics)

Talent time (Audition coming this 15th nov, and we didnt even start practising yet! >.<)

my cg's blog: www.heartsunited08.blogspot.com

Family:

My bro and dad coming to visit me this monday!

Thats it for now. Laters people on the net!

laziness strikes again. Pictures as an update.

2008-10-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

HELP Freshman luncheon...

Memories.

Update update...

2008-10-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

Raya hols....

Me and my porky bro, Marcus

Not counting the pictures (on the food) leonard took on saturday night, thats the only pic i took(that is not blur) during the raya hols. Blah.... Besides finishing the speech, I had an unproductive week.

Off to do my assignments now. Toodles netizens!

I miss....

2008-09-21T22:47:00.001+08:00

My family... ( Their hugs and kisses, doing family devotion together, dinner time around the dining table)

My friends back at my home town.. (Miss their laughters, their lame jokes, showing the lame sign to them, hanging out talking to them, crapping, doing bible study together)

My best friend.. (Spending time just talking and sharing secrets)

Someone i just saw less than 4 hours ago and finally.......

Penang food and my comfy home!!

P.S. To all of the people ive mentioned above( regardless of what category you are from)... Please bear in mind that i do think of you from time to time. Sorry if i cant catch up with you lately. Ive been so busy, but i still do remember you in my prayers every night.

Take care, God bless, and continue to shine for God.

Hidden messsages

2008-09-21T22:07:00.001+08:00

I think I'm in love.

I'm not Kidding.

I hope I am

Why??? Can't i just be an emotionless person?

Sighs

Heavenly Father, reveal to me, if it is Your will, so be it. If its not. Open my eyes.

I trust you.

Through it all..

2008-09-04T18:35:00.002+08:00

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You, And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Hallelujah, hallelujah

Hillsong Australia.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of all these is love.

1 Corinthians 13:4-13

Love never fails.

An update through pictures

2008-09-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

Did not receive a lot of pics from various people yet. Still awaiting the complete group photo for the orientation and the Emerge concert pics from Cheryl.

Signing off & God Bless,
Bea

A not lame post.

2008-08-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

While I was reading the handbook by the faculty of behavioural sciences I got from the orientation. This article caught my attention. So let me just bore you with one of this article, as an update. =P

The relevance of psychology in Malaysia Today

The origins of psychology can be traced back to the writings of ancient Greek philosophers, in particular Aristotle who used the term psyche to refer to the essence of life; translated to Greek to mean “mind”. Fundamentally, modern day psychologists are akin to Aristotle in their quest to understand the entity of ‘mind’ through the study of human behaviour, thought, and feelings.

Psychology is the scientific study of behaviour and mental processes. Psychological theories, like any empirical science, are based on research that that have undergone stringent tests of validity and reliability. From its early days, various psychological theories have had a profound impact on the way society has understood human behaviour and mental processes. *cut a lot*

This constant renewal and infusion of new ideas has been absolutely instrumental in ensuring the relevance of psychology in society today. It is currently understood that a person’s psychological make up is determined by various factors, including their genetic make-up, personality, education, life experiences, family and culture. Therefore in their efforts to understand human behaviour, psychologists perform assessments from a holistic perspective of the person, his life and his culture. This explains why psychology has a broad field of study, encompassing areas like bio-psychology, developmental psychology, social psychology, cognitive psychology and human personality.

*cut again cause lazy to type*

At the community level, educational psychology has provided new methods and models for improving learning and creativity among children and adults. Children with learning disabilities who were previously institutionalised have now, with the help of educational psychologists, entered mainstream education and made successful transactions into adulthood. At the global level, industrial and organizational psychology has enhanced workplace dynamics, selection processes, communication, job satisfaction, and organizational structure to increase productivity and ultimately improve the economy.

*cut again*

The Ministry of Health has launched a concerted effort to train more clinical psychologists to serve in hospitals and clinics across the country, in response to many cases of mental patients going undetected and untreated. What is encouraging is that more and more Malaysian psychologists are making considerable efforts to develop and customize psychological theories and practices to suit our local culture and environment. The psychology community in Malaysia, both academic and practitioners, will need to work towards building a truly strong tradition of psychology in this country, rich with its unique cultural identity and applications.

One thing is certain, as Malaysia makes steady progress towards being a developed nation, there is a growing awareness that psychology will play an increasing important role in developing and protecting this country’s most precious resource, the hearts and minds if its people.

Written by Dr Goh Chee Leong,
Chitra Karthigeyan and Mile Glamcevski

Maybe staying in Malaysia as a psychologist is worth while after all. By the way, orientation was superb. Couldn’t be better. :D

Just a short update

2008-08-21T23:42:00.003+08:00

Alright..i just realise..i haven't been updating my blog...

yes..im on a holiday..

HOLIDAYS.....

-Met up with a couple of my old friends who are/were in KL.

-Shopping, shopping and more shopping!!

-Getting to know new friends from FGA KL and HELP uni, i can say they are friendly people indeed. Hehe.

-Checking up SIB KL this Sunday.

Currently- stuck at my new 'home' feeling aloof...muddle headed...

......Contemplating......abashed....irritated....grousing...to myself..bad bad...... however..when you allow God to take control of your life..and feelings..things change.

.......

............................

Let the pics talk again.

2008-08-14T22:21:00.001+08:00

Erm, I dont have the flair of writing and to avoid any grammatical error and bad spelling. I'll spare you from going "urgh! Wrong spelling" or "huh, what are you trying to say" So, i'll just leave you some pics and probably some comments.

Ron

Ron SS-ing with Willy's cam. XD

Jian

Me reading the book Rachel personally did for me.

Louise trying to hide from what, i cant recall. LOL.

Something from Ron.

Something from Leo.

A book made by Rac for me. Really so sweet of her..

The cheesecake marcus did for me. One word. DELICIOUS.

In return, i made him some muffins.

I will only further update once I've settled myself down in KL. Laters people from Penang and Kulim! Hello citizens of KL.

The real bea and the fake bea..

2008-08-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

Let me teach you how to identify the real Beatrice and the fake Beatrice.

The real Bea dislikes to eat Plain egg yolk.
The fake Bea thinks they are tasty.

The real Bea Hates Mosquitoes.
The fake Bea thinks they are cute.

The real Bea abhors homosexuality.
The fake Bea think its absolutely normal to be homosexuals.

The real Bea always says: lame(to something that is funny or not funny), huh(when blur), hmm(when she has nothing else better to say), shit and idiot(when she's angry).
The fake Bea uses vulgar words.

When you are blur, the real Bea will be blurer* than you.
When you are blur, the fake Bea will totally know whats happening and have everything under control.

The real Bea is forgetful.
The fake Bea does not forget things.

About 50% of the time, the real Bea cant finish her meals. And she pushes it to whoever that is available.
The fake Bea gobbles everything from her side and ask if you can finish yours, if not, she'll help to gobble up yours too.

The real Bea cant help to see people being hurt but is numb to 'fake' hurts.
The fake Bea likes hurting people.

When the real Bea is angry with a certain person, she prefers to keep quiet and not talk to that person until she has cooled down.
The fake Bea uses vulgar words and bitch about that person to everybody she meets.

The real Bea does cry when she's touched or sad.
The fake Bea does not shed a tear.

The real Bea does not have the stamina that she used to have last time.
The fake Bea is still an athletic.

The real Bea's dream is to be a successful clinical psychologist.
The fake Bea has no dreams.

If you are not eager to talk to the real Bea, the real Bea will not be eager to talk to you too.
If you are not eager to talk to the fake Bea, the fake Bea will continue to want to talk to you.

The real Bea has her ego too.
The fake Bea does not have an ego.

The real Bea procrastinates and does things last minute.
The fake Bea very organised, discipline and does things way before its deadline is due.

The real Bea is always lazy.
The fake Bea is not.

And finally...

The real Bea will tell you the above mentioned are all false
The fake Bea will tell you the above mentioned are all true.

Lol...... Joking. Its the other way round.

* Not 100% accurate and only applies to people that are not blurer than Bea.

There's a whole list more to add but because the real Bea is lazy by nature, she will just leave it as it is.
Thanks for taking your time to read this and succumbing to my lameness. Preciate it. :)

Let the pictures talk

2008-08-08T16:10:00.001+08:00

Been out and about this week. Lazy to type now. Ill let the pictures explain everything. The pictures are not arranged according to sequence. ( ill only comment on pictures that i feel like commenting)

Reaction of someone that has never ever seen a chocolate cake. I just gotta put this in my blog. hahhahaha. So funny. She's a natural clown. ( kill me later on msn) XP

See you guys this Saturday! Bring your stomach along. LOL.

I decorated this ugly cake. >.< Yi Wei decorated this cake. Her bro says hers is nicer. I lost. T.T

Me and the 'gao pai seh' guy. XD

Yi Wei: Come, let me try and see if this bowl fits your head.
Bea: If you come near. i will rub my dirty hands on your face.

hahaha.....
Hands itchy, so i removed the colour. Lol. =.=
Sorry yeah marcus, this sat not making muffins. =D

This invisible wall.....

2008-08-05T23:47:00.002+08:00

What makes us two worlds thus far?
What makes us ignorant and pokerfaced?
Is it the distance that parts two sides?
Or the hectic life that poisons in?

No! It is...
This invisible wall, which destroys our Hopes and Fate.
This invisible wall, which crushes all Dreams.
This invisible wall, which is but artificially made.

Just another one of my scribblings but it has a meaning.

Psychology.

2008-08-05T21:38:00.003+08:00

Was looking through a few case report my dad got from his friend, Dr Bratha of GH Penang. This one particular case caught my attention.
______________________________________________________________________
UHRN : 5-E49178
Age : 10 years
Sex : Female
Race : Chinese
Religion : Christian
Date seen : 10/ 2/98

2 CHIEF COMPLAINTS
Persistent fear of death. 4 weeks
Reluctance to go to school

3 HISTORY OF PRESENTING ILLNESS
This patient was well until one month ago when she developed persistent fear of death. She was afraid that she would die and be separated from her parents. She was also afraid that something bad would happen to her parents and they would die. She did not want to grow old as she felt if she became old her parents would also grow old and die.
The patient developed reluctance to go to school as she was afraid her parents would die when she was at school. When she was forced to go to school she wanted one of her parents to stay at school until her classes were over.
She had lost interest in things that she enjoyed doing before like reading story books, watching videos or visiting her cousins.
_____________________________________________________________________________

Now, what would you diagnose this little girl with?
Truthfully, i do not know the answer until i later found out that its the separation anxiety disorder.

Interesting....

Tagged by Aaron

2008-08-04T23:45:00.006+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Beatrice
2. Bea
3. Shen Ern

Nick names that people have given you (Not included in the tag):
1. Beat-rice
2. Beatrix
3. Beatwix
4. Bea Bea
5. Bee
6. "shen dan lao ren" (Santa Claus in chinese) cause of my chinese name, shen ern.=.=!!
7. Big-tree =.=!!!!!!
8. Pig
9. Aunty
10. Ah ma
11. Ah Ern

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Not really sure about this so I'll just ignore this part.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my small face
2. my hair
3. my butt (when I'm not feeling fat. LOL)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My butt (when I'm feeling fat)
2. my hair (when i have a bad hair day)
3. my face (when i have pimples)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. I should be purely chinese. =) Unless... (No unless)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. STALKERS (Are people that have too much free time and have nothing much better to do than stalking others. Shame on you! Get a life!)
2. I can't sleep with mosquitoes around. LOL
3. Things that crawl and slither. Eg. Snakes, cicaks yada yada.....

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. water and food ( actually I'm quite fine without food for one day)
2. Sleep
3. my facial foam. Haha.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:
1. ....... My pajamas

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Hillsong
2. Chris Tomlin
3. Chris Daughtry

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):
1. Journey to the past ( Anastasia)
2. Home (Chris Daughtry)
3. I still havent found what I'm looking for ( Cook, Daughtry)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Understanding and Sensitivity
2. Commitment
3. Adventure

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. I always look at the personality of the opposite sex. To me physical appearance doesnt matter much. But i have my limits also (lah.)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Chilling out with my friends.
2. Baking!
3. Does singing in the bathroom count? XD

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go to the beach and just listen to the sound of the waves.
2. Make all the flies and mosquitoes in this world disappear in a zap.
3. Eat Baskin Robbin's very berry strawberry flavoured ice cream.

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. Clinical psychology
2. Biotech
3. At one point modeling as a part time job. But its a crappy idea! haha.
Not to forget, customer service. (From Jan to July 08) =D

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. New York
2. New Zealand
3. Paris

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Travel and see at least half of the world
2. Go on a missionary trip
3. Go to Israel. Haha.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:
1. With my height and weight.... Zzzz
2. My face looks like a girl.. (duh......)
3. I have the voice of a girl. ( duh again)

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL/GUY:
1. Sometimes i hit my best buddies. Like real hard? hahaha. ( But that one only applies when i kena provoked to the max )
2. Errrr, i like to watch batman, matrix and some other 'guy' movies.
3. Someone suggested because i wear pants. =.=!!! (Tell me if you can think of any other VALID reasons. I'll consider filling it in.)

FIVE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
- Anybody that feels like doing this. Just do it!

In Loving Memory of my Braided hair

2008-08-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

Recently, i was going through old pictures on my laptop. Deleted a few unwanted pictures. Anyway, pictures which i took when i had my hair braided caught my attention. I kinda miss that feeling of having my hair braided.

Lol....

Maybe i should try braiding my hair again.

Maybe not. Which will carry on to look like this.

Currently feeling.... *Indecisive*

I'm carefree and currently free from whatsoever stress now. Therefore, I'm creating my own stress. Thats how lame i can get.

Indulgence.

2008-08-04T18:59:00.000+08:00

Went to Sunway with Louise and Joie I came home with....

Tada!

A mask, an invisible nail polish, and a bottle of lotion.

The smell of the lotion is really nice. I cant stop myself from smelling myself now. LOL! XD Hope you can smell it too. But too bad. =P

Moo...

2008-08-01T23:24:00.003+08:00

Cows With Guns

Got this from Titus. Really entertaining*. Enjoy~~!

*Only applies to lame people.

Random post

2008-08-01T21:19:00.002+08:00

Just got a new pair of specs recently.

Blah.... There goes another lame post. Thank you for your time.~~ LOL.

Farewell BBraun..

2008-07-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

So i'm currently on a short holiday now. Wheeee..... The feeling's great. Since i'm so free now, i would might as well blog something. And i here i am, blogging about my farewell lunch at TGI Friday's with my colleagues. I wont upload too much pictures as my connection sucks right now. I cant even sign in to MSN.

My colleagues had a farewell for me at TGI friday's. My generous boss, A.T Tan "belanja-ed" all of us.

Some of the food we ordered

me and some of the ladies from my department, wonderful people indeed. =)

Me, Chye Lean (left) and A.T, my boss (right)

After the main course, it was time for dessert. Then wala! A person from TGI Friday's came and called me to stand on the chair, that time i was like.. What? But because of my colleagues (to give face ma) i obliged and got my heavy feet up on the chair.

I was later asked to sing a song with the tomato ketchup bottle as my mike, give a speech (tears almost streamed down my eyes that time) and blow a candle which was across the table while standing on my chair. (yeah, what the... ) =.=!!

I got an MP4 as a farewell prezzie. I was speechless and almost to tears (again) when i received it.

And, oh yeah, a guy working at TGI Friday's asked me what my name was and what cartoon i like. I said Spongebob and he drew on this balloon for me there and then.

Goodbye, loving people from BBraun. You taught me a lot and gave me wonderful memories. I love my first job though i complaint a lot at times. =)

Anyway, I believe there are more wonderful things in stored for me in the future. I will just abide and follow where the Lord leads me. Hope He will help me to keep the passion which He had planted in my heart to burn continuously.

Lame Post # 3

2008-07-25T10:23:00.001+08:00

Penang.
I am in.

Working.
I have been.

Stop working.
I will soon .

Eating cereal now.
I am.

Go to KL.
I will soon.

Excited and nervous.
I feel.

Come find me before I leave.
You should.

Find me from the 1st of August till the 8th.
If you want to.

The weekend is near.
I am happy that.

To bake a cheesecake this weekend.
I am planning.

What the flavour of the cheesecake would be.
I am still thinking.

Lazy.
I have been.

Do work now.
I must.

Chat later.
I will.

Sign off soon.
I will.

Lame.
I have been.

Say bye.
I will.

Bye.
Good.

A post dedicated to a great friend

2008-07-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

Would you go all out for a friend? I'm grateful for having such friends. It touches me sometimes to know how some of my friends care for me.

Went out with someone the other day to Queensbay. That someone from penang drove me from my office to Queensbay then back to Kulim then back to penang again.... Sacrificial leh. Somemore wanna argue with me when i offered to pay toll. (teruk mia) But thank God we reach home just on time. 11.. >.<

When i thought i won't see that person again until my next semester break or something. That person dropped by my office for lunch and gave me a farewell gift. Make me feel so guilty cause i didn't prepare anything for that person.

Later according to that someone. Its suppose to be a 2 piece shirt... A little bit funny but Cute.

All i know is that you are a great friend. Thank you. I will miss a friend like you when im gone. =)

You know who you are. Don't have to reveal any names here.

We've got Issues....

2008-07-21T03:48:00.001+08:00

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. Even reaching home at around 1 am. I cant seem to fall asleep. My body was exhausted and worn out but my mind is still wondering. Thinking about issues that occurred earlier on.

Witnessed an immature argument. ( by adults.... Totally Shameful!) I regreted attending that meeting. Now i lack sleep and am already near to dozing off at work. Can't they get it that all we want to see is just reconciliation?!! What for blaming us for taking sides. To me, both sides are wrong this time. No use bringing up each other's fault now. It'll only heat things up and cause more dispute among the 2 sides.

As a church that upholds the word of God. Why not turn to the word of God during this crucial moment??

Proverbs 26

20 Without wood a fire goes out; without gossip a quarrel dies down.

I believe gossiping is what that tore the house of God apart. ‘Bad-mouthing’ about each other, poison letters, distorted truths from the leaders and yada yada.. All this has to stop!!

It is clear now that the church is divided. If any side do not humble themselves and give in. I believe the devil has succeeded in taking over this church. Jesus went to the cross and lay down his life in the hands of those that were against him. Does this mean that he is weaker? In fact, this proves that he is stronger! Sometimes, being able to be the first person to say sorry doesn’t mean that you are being defeated. It simply means that you are both emotionally and spiritually more mature and stronger. When are you immature adults going to learn that? Stop it, for Christ's sake. We are one. Remember??

Enough said.

*Sighs* its finally out. In a healthy way. I can now sleep in peace tonight.

Lame Post # 2 (Bs)

2008-07-17T11:51:00.000+08:00

B’s Bored. B is Beginning to Build rapport with her dear customers from Pakistan right Before B leaves BBraun. B is Beginning to love her job. B loves her colleagues. B is discovering new things about herself. B misses some people now. B can’t wait for the weekend. B is loosing concentration. B needs to work. B will be Busy soon when Pakistan’s office hours start. B just found her accommodation in KL. B is excited and nervous. B found a lot of kind people from HELP. Thank God for that and to those people that helped B in one way or another, giving B info and everything. Including those that do not study in HELP but tried their Best to help B. ( You know who you are. =) ) Thank You.

B loves life. B is currently feeling lame. B hears the phone ringing now. B gotta go now.

Bye.

Lame post # 1

2008-07-16T18:32:00.003+08:00

1. Two antennas met on a roof, fell in love and got married. The ceremony wasn't much, but the reception was excellent.
2. Two peanuts walk into a bar, and one was asalted.
3. Two cannibals are eating a clown. One says to the other, "Does this taste funny to you?"
4. An invisible man married an invisible woman. The kids were nothing to look at.
5. Deja Moo: The feeling that you've heard this bull before.
6. I went to buy some camouflage trousers the other day but I couldn't find any.
7. A man woke up in a hospital after a serious accident.He shouted, "Doctor, doctor, I can't feel my legs!"The doctor replied, "I know you can't - I've cut off your arms!"
8. What do you call a fish with no eyes? A fish.
9. Two fish swim into a concrete wall. The one turns to the other and says "Dam!"
10. A group of chess enthusiasts checked into a hotel and were standing in the lobby discussing their recent tournament victories. After about an hour, the manager came out of the office and asked them to disperse.
But why," they asked"Because", he said, "I can't stand chess-nuts boasting in an open foyer."

Just in case you don't know, you are suppose to laugh at the end of every sentence. (give face a bit lah.... now thats more like it. =.=)

Am still stuck at the office replying mails. Sighssssssss.

What are the keys to your heart?

2008-07-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Sundays.

2008-07-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

Teaching in sunday school is a good way to train your patience.... *according to someone* haha.

Well, in fact it is. But then looking at those cute kids. You wouldn't be provoked to anger too i suppose. (for my case lar)

Hmmm, this Sunday, we were playing with puppets. Thanks to leonard's help, i was able to finish the puppets (right before class starts, that is) on time cause im a very last minute person. >.< (sighs, gotta change~~ But most likely wont.... Heehee) Anyway, Pics!

Jessica..... my favourite girl... ( the cute girl in pink)

Introducing Tanita ( also one of my favourite, cause she does things real fast) She was absent this week though.

Today quite a few of them were absent. Tanita, Shirley, Phoebe, Hezron, Hermon....

Sighs... Gonna miss them when im gone.... and oh yeah thanks to leonard, the camera man. =)

Random post..

2008-07-10T08:56:00.008+08:00

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Yea it's therapy.

Aesculap production tour......

2008-07-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

I went for another production tour today.

Learned a great deal out of it. Today's tour is on Aesculap (surgical instruments)

Before heading to the production site. I was given earplugs as i was informed that it is going to be noisy and deafening with all the hammering and machines operating.

I'll let the pictures explain as a picture can mean a thousand words.

Raw materials (steels)

These steels were later cut into smaller sizes.

After that, it was heated and hammered by a machine to give an outline of the perimeter of the shape that was needed.

It was later cut into the shape required. The remaining steel will be regarded as scrap and will be sold to another party as it can no longer be suitable to be reused in Bbraun to make surgical instruments due to hygiene and quality purposes.

The milling process comes next where the steel would be coated with a layer of wax and holes were drilled into the steels.

Blacksmiths will combine the two sides of the steel together to make an instrument as well as repair and touch up those with dented or irregular shape.

QC (Quality Controlling) would go through another round of inspection to ensure that the instrument is in a good condition. Rejects would be marked and asked to be repaired again.

Later these instruments were coated/plated with an outer coat in a room. (Be it Gold plated or silver) I was not encouraged to go into the room as chemicals were being emitted so i just took a picture from the outside of the room.

Once done, the instruments will be taken to a place where every single instrument will be labeled and coded through laser printing and every batch number that was printed into the instrument will be keyed in the system to be recorded.

The next step is the cleaning process where these surgical instruments were transported to a room where. It will be dipped in hot water. And later a certain kind of chemical.

And finally, the packing process where operators have to put on their full attire of the jumpsuit as well as head covers while packing these surgical instruments.

I hope you all benefited a lil bit from what i have shared here, as i did when i went for the tour. Special thanks to Mr. Ayob (although he might not come across my blog >.<) for his guidance and time as well as his souvenir. =)

Signing off.

Overnight at Yi Wei's place.

2008-07-05T21:22:00.000+08:00

Was overnight at yi wei's place last thursday. Had a pillow fight with Mich for awhile because she said something that she should not say. *Ahemsssssss*

Anyway pics....

Till we meet again. =)

Sutures production tour.............

2008-07-04T23:03:00.016+08:00

Went for a production tour in Bbraun for sutures last wednesday.

It was rather interesting. So far I've already visited pharma and medical plant but did not get to have a glimpse on sutures. Anyway, I'll let the pictures explain.

First of all, we have to put on our jump suit, shoe cover and head cover in the visitor's cloak room, wash our hands, and disinfect our hands by applying the Softa-man.

Here's pics of me with the jump suit~~ blur...... i know. =.=

The first place we went was a room filled with surgical needles that looks like hooks. There's a machine in that room was meant for spraying the needles with an outer coating to make the surface of the needles smooth. So that when a patient is being operated. He/she will not feel so much pain due to the 'coarse' surface of the needles ( to reduce the fraction la basically). After the needles have been sprayed. It will be left to be cooled.

Needles that looks like hooks.

Into the 'Spraying' machine.

Next, We entered a room filled with threads. Those threads were said to be made from cow intestines. (i know. ewww =D) But thankfully, it does not smell like one. The reason why is because it has already been soaked with a kind of solution that takes away its smell and at the same time, soften it. The larger the diameter of the thread, the longer you have to soak it in the solution(This process is also known as the dipping process). The time required for the thread to be soaked depends on the degree of softness you want the thread to be.

pics...........

How the machine cuts the threads

Solutions for dipping.

The dipping process.

Different kinds of solutions for different threads.

After the dipping process, the threads have to be dried.

There's a special room, with monitored temperature to dry the threads.

Later, we went to a bigger room where most of the operators are. There, we get to see how the surgical needle and the thread will be assembled together. This process was basically done manually by the operators. There's a screen in front of the operators to enlarge the image of the needle and thread so that it will help them to see properly.

Also came to know that an operator has to fulfill the target of assembling 3,000 pcs of thread and needle together in a single day. A pretty daunting task eh.. Considering the fact that they only have like 12 seconds (continuouly, non stop) to assemble the thread and the needle together. If its me. I think i'll fumble over it. >.< For sutures, hygiene is essential and very important. Thus, Special packaging is required to ensure the product in the package remains fresh and uncontaminated. All the sutures has to be tested by QC( quality control) before packaging.

After being assembled. ( the needles and the thread)

Solution is added into the already assembled (thread& needle) and inserted into a case where it will be later sealed with a foil. Besides, special labels are required for different countries. Therefore, there's a lazer printer that functions just to print the labels for different countries.

We also went in to the room where all the printings are being carried out.

Solution being added into a case with the sutures.

Here's pictures of the Printer.

Am proud to be able to work in Bbraun. Although its only for a short period of time, but i learned and gained a lot from there.

P.S. My Aesculape production tour is coming soon. Weeeeee~

Weekend.......

2008-06-30T11:46:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, i went to Tokun Hill with Leonard. At first, everything went well. We were just walking like normal, until we reached the wawasan stop. Then, Leonard decided to open his bag and eat the twisties. Lo and behold........ the monkeys came like vultures and were eyeing his bag. They tried to snatch the bag away from him. It was quite a scary sight. haha. And quite kan cheong(exciting) also to see how Leonard shoo-ed the monkeys away. Anyway, at last we also ate the twisties, but in another place. Too bad, monkeys....

Malangnya, we did not take any pics too. Leonard brought the camera but... he did not tell me. *why la bring camera din tell me one* haishh. Wasted only. hahaha..

Then Sunday, i went to church. After teaching in sunday school (wanted to take pictures, but duno why tak jadi. Maybe next sunday), while the children were colouring their stuff, i faster rush to the youth service cause i don't wanna miss the bible quiz. Joined Aaron's group, the winning group (unintentionally one kays... XD) We won! ( without much of my help, that is. ) =.=

Also saw 'someone' dissecting a rat through his cam on sunday morning (during service somemore).

One word. Gross. XD

Overnight at mich's place (part 2)

2008-06-28T23:02:00.002+08:00

More pics....... haha.

Here's a pic of yi wei *mumbles (pretending)* to teach nicholas. =P

Cute nicholas again.

Melts.... he drew that because i played solitaire(spider ones) with him..... my name was spelled wrongly. But i dont mind.. i so want your bro mich..... >.<
Some more get to see live wrestling.....

We also went to Queensbay......

The food we ate

The 3 of us...

I look 'lan si'(proud) in this pic la... >.<

Future models......... on second thought. maybe not. XD

Overnight at mich's place (part 1)

2008-06-28T20:25:00.000+08:00

Here's some pics i promised.

We did orange juice after dinner. Did not add any sugar or water. It was nice, but kinda sour.

Played with Nicholas.

He's cute leh...... not to forget cheeky too. =D

And talk.. and talk and laugh... and talk.....

All in all, it was great.

Focus.

2008-06-26T10:38:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night was fun. Spent the day at mich's place with her cuteeeeee and cheeeeeeky brother. Will upload pictures when i'm back.

Anyway, I will be going to Queensbay later after work. Maybe will watch the hulk. Im working now and am already thinking about later.

I seriously need to concentrate. >.<

I am fine.....

2008-06-25T23:24:00.001+08:00

Its a wonder how words can spread so fast. I am fine people. Really. Please don't ask me how are you. Sure or not, really or not.... already k? Dont force me to say i am not fine when i am. If i'm not feeling well and i feel like telling you, i will.

Thanks for your concern. *smiles*

Excited

2008-06-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

Spent my lunch time with mich today. We went to Giant and talked like we haven't been talking for years. >.< Anyway, no worries. We can still sambung our conversation tomorrow.=D I will be staying at her place for the next few days. Starting from wed to fri. Then, i will be back at kulim during the weekends cause i have to teach in sunday school this sunday. Promised ps Cheng Kooi d. =.=" However, maybe i will continue to stay at her place next monday till like i dont know when. We plan to bake, kacau our old friend, go QueensBay yadayadayada....

Anyway, I'm off to pack my stuff now. *claps my hands in glee* lol!

I know im lame. forgive me. haha.

Work Work......

2008-06-23T22:23:00.001+08:00

Well, i think most of you know that im already working now.(temporarily until end July. Before i enter uni in aug) But to those that i forgot to inform, Im currently working in BBRAUN. I bet some of you sure pronounce it wrongly ones. =p It is actually a German company producing products like.. There are 5 main groups actually. Let me explain briefly.

1. Sutures- In another words, stiches (the thing which you use to sew your wound). The good thing is that it actually absorbs into your skin after time. So you dont have to remove it after your wound closes up. Which can spare you a lot of pain. =)
2. Pharma- Practically Solutions. (Like when you go to the hospital and visit someone. You can see a tiub with solutions dripping into the patient's body)
3. Medical- Mostly needles basically
4. MedTech- Pumps Or machines (eg. Dialysis machines)
5. Asculape- Instruments surgeons use to operate

Well, i am in customer service. And am in charge of the country Pakistan. What??! Pakistan?? Yes, Pakistan. LOL. Which means.... I receive calls from Pakistanis everyday, without fail. >.< that goes like this.... Morning, this is *name here* calling from *place (usually its Karachi or Lahore) *. Then there goes the story... *blablabla*
It can be delay of shipments, wrong quantity shipped, wrong pricing, goods damage, complaint of products, shortage of original documents or whatever.... And to add to the stress, ever heard of the phrase "CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT" even if they are wrong. hahahhhha. Great. Just great. I love my job. Opps, did i just say something wrong?

Maybe not, cause there's another part of work that i actually like. And that is the people there. Would like to take this opportunity to thank my colleagues for their support and guidance to me without fail. Chye lean, Hooi Hong, Phaik San, Shu Chin, Kong, Poh Yen, Heng Chew (temporary trainee sitting just beside me, also very kaypo about my life one. =p right?) Kah Cheong, Mr Lai, Raymond(likes to perli me one but thanks for your guidance) and finally my boss, AT Tan for the opportunity.

I shall upload pictures in this blog when im about to leave. (end july that is. remind me if i dont) =D

Im currently feeling..... very tired now. Think ill drop dead in my bed right away when i return to my room later.

Random thoughts...

2008-06-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore.
It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret.
Letting go isn't winning and it isn't losing.
It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear,
And it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past.
Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts,
And doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness.
It's not giving in or giving up.
Letting go isn't about loss, and it's not defeat.

To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and to move on.
It is having an open mind and confidence in the future.
Letting go is accepting,
It is learning and experience and growing.
To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry and made you grow.
It's about all that you have, all that you had and all that you will soon gain.

Letting go is the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.
Letting go is about growing up.
It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.
To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and to set yourself free.
Free, for a better future.

Weeeeeeee

2008-06-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT: MICHELLE TAN SZE-FAN IS BACK!

Haha. I'm so excited la. I plan to stay overnight at her place for hopefully a week. Then she'll have to drive me to work and back. And maybe, we'll work out and burn fats together after my work. *wonders, if she had already gained weight so far* and not to forget, bully cute Nicolas too...... =p

Really miss fellowshipping with this old pal of mine. So ill just end this post of mine with two words. Cant wait!!!

Will update and add more pictures when i'm at her place. I intend to bring my laptop over. =)

My first post

2008-06-23T20:15:00.005+08:00

I know, I know. A lot of you will probably think *ahhh finally, a blog from bea!!* haha. Anyway, I just want to use this opportunity to say sorry to my friends who are concern about me and want to know more about recent life but due to me being busy and lazy(sorry la), i have not updated you about my life. Thanks to leonard, i finally got a name for my blog. Actually he suggested abea'slife.blogspot.com but then the ' is not allowed. So i finally came up with..... lifeofabea.blogspot.com !!!
I hope in the near future, you guys will get a glimpse of my life through this blog. Cheers. Bea. =D