Reflective thinking

Dear blog,

There are days where you don't feel like chatting with friends online, going out, or even talking because you felt that you've been spending practically all your time doing so. You just wish that you could just spend some quiet time reading a book, doing your devotion and ponder on things.

Tonight is one of those nights. I came to realize that my whole month was practically spent just hanging out with people. Its not that I do not want to hang out with people and spend time with them, I DO. But its just that I'm so tired and worn out and somehow in the midst of doing so, I lost myself. I am indeed thankful that God
has put in a great bunch of friends in my life and I feel so blessed by them. I really wish that i could write a letter to each and every one of them to tell them how i feel. However, no matter how sociable a person may be, i feel that a person still need some time to be alone.

DO you think private thoughts?

What questions do you always ask yourself? Are you setting your priorities right in life? Are you truly happy now? Is anything hindering you from moving forward? Do you carry a burden in you that only you know about? Are you at par with the standards others expect on you?

Sometimes i wonder why do people avoid saying things they long to say? Maybe because rationality surpasses emotions, surpasses regrets? Or is it because of the fear of rejection, the fear of being hurt and also the fear of being viewed as a weakling? Are these fears the reason why a person would hinder their own self from expressing what they are suppressing deep within their hearts? Or perhaps the perception of 'bearing the thing alone so the receiver would not feel burdened by it' mindset that is preventing them from portraying their true self. Some people choose to express how they feel, some decide to keep it embedded inside their own hearts.

Whatever it is, know that it is YOU that determine your own happiness, do not let anybody snatch that away from you.